Paradox / Paradoxo

All of a sudden it´s like everything makes sense. Like what happened before becomes what happened after, and the after became a distant Past...a Past that I don´t know because it still didn´t happen.


E de repente, é como se tudo fizesse sentido. Como se o antes fosse o depois,e o depois se tornasse num passado distante...um passado que não conheço porque ainda não aconteceu.

To My Love...

Your eyes are deeper than the Ocean, I don´t know how to swim.
I would love to drown in them, and fight with your tears with promises of never letting them fall down your face.
Your eyes shine like stars, I want them to light my way on the darkest nights and show me the way to go.
Your smile is so honest .
Your heart is so pure , I wish I could take care of it for all eternity.
My eyes can only look at you, they will only cry for you. My smile is because of you, my heart is yours.

Not there.

I heard a whisper last night, so I followed it. It took me to a very familiar place, but the faces there, were from a more recent time and it didn´t make sense for them to be there. I went to my favorite water fountain and drank some cold water, and that´s when the truth start unveiling in front of my eyes...is that the whisper again? I see her, she´s there but she isn´t...everybody passes her by and they don´t seem to see her since she disapeared last time. I see her because she wants to be seen by me, but why me? How could I help her? Rumor had it, that last time everybody saw her, she was fading away , but I always saw her very clear. She took me through her last steps...I heard her sing ,as loud as her lungs alowed her too, and someone didn´t like it so they took her away, she screamed and sang at the same time as if she was enjoying to piss this people off. One person became three, three became eight, eight became fifteen, and they all surronded her while she made sure her voice was heard...this rebelious act made them very angry and they beat her up until there wasn´t anything left...not even a hair. I ran to them to make them stop, but my movements were in slow motion and they couldn´t hear me or see me because I wasn´t really there. I cried, and when I showed emotion one of them saw me, I recognized him and he recognized me... he looked at me with his sharp evil eyes and told me I was too late. I knew I wasn´t late, it´s never too late to tell the truth.

Shadow

The warm shadow of the Sun consumes me, and gives me goosebumps.
I never thought something warm could make me feel cold.
I bet this is what lovers feel, when they have to be away from each other...they feel the warmth of love but the coldness of the distance. The only thing that eases the pain is knowing that the same Sun that shines for me, shines for you too. I send you messages via the Light and I know they are all delivered everytime I think about your smile.
I love looking at you through a memory curtain that separates us, and when I touch it , it dissipates and there we are, together again, dancing to the music of our bodies. Can you hear it? It´s the sweetest melody, the most amazing sound coming from such a real place. A place that is only real for those who have loved with no fear, those who love day by day, those who love unconditionaly.
Even the shadow of the night doesn´t scare me when we´re apart, because in a very deep way you are the shadow of the night that takes me safely to my dreams and there I can meet you, and once again we´ll dance the night away...

Soul Music

It was a cold quiet night, to quiet if you asked her. So silent she could hear her heartbeat... which could only mean one thing: it was time to go.

She didn´t pack a bag, didn´t even bother to get dressed. Her mind was naked and so was she.

She went outside and felt invisible: no one looked at her and no one could see her, so she started heading towards the cliff.

She walked for miles and miles, her feet were bleeding from all the sharp rocks she stepped on but that didn´t stop her. Slowly , her feet became numb and felt like two heavy stones...still, she kept pacing to the cliff.

When she finally got there, her whole body had turned into a moving stone. She sat on the edge of it and thought about jumping: how would she jump, and if it would make sense to jump if she didn´t feel anything. She thought so much about every possibility that she didn´t even realize that 8 hours had gone by.

That was until something woke her up from her trance:

"Could it be?" -she was hearing that music...that music that came from a special soul,and it was getting closer and closer.

She kept staring straight ahead to the cliff, knowing that this was the kind of music she could trust.

Quickly ,the stone started cracking and her body started turning soft and warm, to a point where she was able to crack a smile. When she felt the music breathing behind her ,she closed her eyes and heard him whisper:

"I see you...I´m not going anywhere."

When she opened her eyes, there it was: the Sunrise.

Further

Isn´t it fascinating how some people get us and yet they don´t even know us? All of a sudden you find yourself out of your confort zone, and don´t even know what you are suposed to say ..if anything. You want to be in control but your feelings take over your common sense and you can´t stop.
You wake up feeling blessed that you´ve been given another day on Earth to be happy and the possibilities of it are endless. Some people just know what to say, and what buttons to push to make you smile. It surprises you that a stranger would "get you" , it shocks you that someone can make you smile in that special way that usually takes years to pop out. But you don´t care and just let yourself go...at least a little further, now you´re curious and you just have to know what´s going on. Where is your self control? Can´t you control your impulses? It slightly bothers you that someone comes in without an invitation, but you don´t want them to leave because you enjoy talking and sharing. They make this special LIGHT shine through you. You picture yourself in an empty dark room ,someone creeps up from behind and you´re not scared, they hold you and you feel their breath on your neck, usually you´re afraid of the dark but not now...you turn around and feel the warmth of another soul...the next thing you know you´re dancing in the dark and loving it...Do you want to go back to what you had, or do you want to stay here and listen to this new tune?
If you´re curious,go a little further...

Chance

Dim lights, you feel observed and you want to look and find out who it is but you decide to play the game a little longer pretending not to know he´s looking at you, almost devouring you with his eyes. You quickly look at him while he´s distracted for 2 seconds, "Do I know him?"-you ask yourself."It´s too dark in here,oh God he saw me looking..." Nervous with getting caught you decide to go outside for a cigarrete ,he gets up and walks right behind you. You get anxious and speed up your step and once you get outside he´s nowhere in sight,"What the heck? where did he go?" you smoke your cigarrete almost in slow motion in hopes he´ll show up.You´re intrigued with this character. He never comes out of the place so you adjust your dress ,throw out the cigarrete and walk in. For your surprise he´s waiting for you at the entrance,and once again all eyes on You. You stop right in front of him, he looks at you with a very serious face. You get a head to toe goosebump and in a shy voice you ask "Do I know you?" "-Do you?" he answers with another question. He didn´t smile much, he didn´t talk much, he the didn´t seem to feel much ...that was until you looked in his eyes. Green eyes with great depth, underneath the surface was where all the great things were kept safe and only if you had the right code you would be granted access to it. So far no one has been able to get there, and you felt like his question was an invitation. So you answered "Yes." He held your hand and you both walked out of there. That was the last time I saw you, I asked your friends about you and all of them give me the same answer : she´s getting closer to the truth.