My dear Little Girl...
I hope you are feeling better since we last spoke...how long go was that?Too long I would say.
I've always hated to see you down and not focused on yourself,you have so much to offer the World,you just lose so much time focusing in little things that don't matter for your present let alone for your brilliant future.
How dare you comparing yourself to those creeps,to those vampires,to those airheads,they think so high of themselves,it's ludacris! Their name doesn't deserve to be in the same sentence as yours,and when it does,you are the one saying it!They have value in their own lives,let them be!Shit attracts shit,you know that!
Let them all eat from the same plate,that's the only way they know how to live!Let their bellies be full,let their thirst be drenched by each others blood,let them stab themselves in the back with the sharpest knife,let them kill each other softly or hardly,as they wish,they will vanish,they will soon become used and vulgar,they will become another grain of sand in the desert...but guess what?Not you little girl!You warned them,you tried to help them...how dare you trying to help them after they spat in your soul? How dare you my dear little girl?How dare you? Can't you see your own Light? Can't you see what shines through?
Please stop pretending you care for them,stop pretending you actually give a fuck...you don't....you couldn't care less...stop trying to keep your so called enemies closer!Fuck that! you don't need enemies,you're too precious for that!Surrond yourself with people who love you for who you are,not for what you do,those fakers! I see them,you do too!
Take off those Pink Sunglasses,you look ridiculous in them,lose Faith!LOSE ALL THE FAITH IN THEM!That's the only way you'll become Raw again,and you'll start from zero to one,to two ,and so on...they are the way they are,they won't change,stop listening to their bulshit and procrastination...yours should be enough!
Little girl,my dear little girl...your plate is full in this table for one,one can be a crowd,when One is You.
One most of the times is Enough...even when you're surronded by people you are able to feel alone,if the people who surrond you is Them! Let those Demons go!
Little girl,how many times have you cried yourself to sleep because They hurted you so deeply and so shamelessly...do you think they deserve your tears? Never...The only thing they deserve from you is your Sad Compassion....they are Mentaly Crippled,forever.....there's no cure and no hope.
Everytime I see you cry because of them I say a prayer for their souls,because their Karma is becoming so heavy and they are dragging yours along,so DON'T LET THEM WIN! You are so much more than that! Wake Up,Rise Up,Take Action,Be Happy...Because in the End that's all you want to be...Little girl...my sweet little girl...
I love you.
Monday, June 21, 2010
"SHE was in a glass elevator,SHE had built it herself with HER own hands.SHE did it because SHE wanted to be taken as High as Love once allowed HER to.
SHE filled the glass elevator with flowers,love letters(the posessions she prized the most) from past lovers who knew HER well enough to give HER what SHE most loved...SHE also put some stars,a rainbow,light and courage inside...And away SHE wanted to go.SHE pressed the buttoN that said NIRVANA,but the elevator didn't move and a sign that said "TOO HEAVY" turned on.SHE looked around to see if someone could help HER,but no one came. SHE sat outside the elevator,and heard an old woman cry,SHE imediately rushed to her side and asked what was wrong? The old woman told HER why she was feeling so sad;she missed her deceased husband who passed away the previous year,he was her life companion,and that she never went to the cemetery to take him flowers and talk to him,so the GIRL went back to the elevator got the flowers gave it to the old woman and said:"Today is the Day!" The old woman SMILED at HER,and got on her way to the cemetery.
Next thing SHE knew,SHE had a little boy next to her,SHE asked him his name,he said "John,can you please help me build a paper plane so I can fly home to my parents?" SHE loved his boldness,and decided to help him, "Do you have paper?" -SHE asked."No,but I saw tons of it in a glass elevator!"-he replied."My love letters....Can I part ways with it?"-SHE thought. After looking at John's sweet face,SHE didn't hesitate anymore. Thet glued every single one of the letters together,and built a GIGANTIC paper plane, John gave HER a big HUG, hopped on the plane and flew away...SHE felt that a big part of HER past was going with him,but this wasn't a bad thing.
SHE looked at the elevator from a distance and there was a young woman looking inside,SHE ran there and asked her if she was lost. The young woman coldly answered "Is it that obvious? I'm extremely poor and my family needs my support" ;so OUR FRIEND got the rainbow from the elevator,threw it in the sky and told the young woman "In the end of every rainbow there's a pot of gold,chase this rainbow!" The young woman expressed extreme GRATITUDE and ran away.
SHE walked back to the elevator,pressed NIRVANA ,and the "TOO HEAVY" sign turned on again. Since SHE only had stars, courage and Light inside of it, SHE decided to get rid of the Stars, but when SHE walked outside there was a young man sitting on the ground. SHE asked if he needed help,he quickly answered :"Are you a talent agent?" she replied:"No...why?",and he said: "Because I know I have talent but I feel that I'm stuck in this place..." SHE looked at her hands and saw what SHE was carrying,SHE let go of it and the Stars slowly started taking their place in the sky. SHE put HER hand in his shoulder,told him to look up and kindly said :"Always aim for the Stars my brother." He got up,KISSED HER in the forehead and took off.
Now SHE was left with Light and courage,soon SHE would be able to press NIRVANA and go as HIGH as SHE could...but there was something bothering HER...SHE felt...hmmmm...what was that feeling? SHE felt....observed!
SHE looked around and saw someone looking at HER from the top of a Mountain.He waved...and SHE waved back,he screamed :"COME UP!!!" and SHE said "NO!YOU COME DOWN!",he screamed back : "I'M SCARED!"; so SHE instantly thought about giving him the Courage SHE had stored in HER elevator.SHE grabbed it,and started climbing the Mountain,it was in fact a very hard Mountain to climb,but she had a mission and was adventurous. When SHE got up there he smiled shyly and offered HER some tea. He then proceded to ask HER,what was a girl doing in the middle of nowhere,giving flowers away,building paper planes,throwing rainbows and stars in the sky...SHE explained to him the point of HER glass elevator,how badly she wanted to go to "that NIRVANA place" and the Joy and High SHE got from helping these people,"Well,isn't that NIRVANA?what you're feeling right now..."-he asked. SHE got pensive...and decided to answer with another question "What is a man like you scared of?" He turned away from her,looked down and said :"I'm a loner,I don't fit in with people,I've lived in my own world for many years,no one seems appealing to me...","That's not what I asked!I asked what are you afraid of." He looked HER in the eyes and said :"I'm scared to tell the woman of my dreams that I love her". SHE felt bad for him,handed him the Courage and said :"Today is the Day",turned away and started heading down. When SHE was midway,he yelled from the top "HEY!" she looked up and he said:"I APPRECIATE what you do for others." SHE smiled and kept going down the Mountain,when SHE was close to the the elevator she thought about the SMILE from the old woman,the HUG from the little boy,the GRATITUDE from the young woman,the KISS from the young man and the APPRECIATION from theat misterious guy...could he be right?Was that NIRVANA? She got on the elevator,looked around and there was only Light left,SHE swallowed it so HER inner Light always shinned through,closed HER eyes thought about HER day,and just when SHE was ready to press "NIRVANA",SHE heard a knock on the glass door...she looked out and saw the Misterious man,he mouthed the words: " I LOVE YOU,STAY WITH ME"..."
THE END OR THE BEGGINING? =)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
The saying : "PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT " -was stuck in her head, because she finally mastered the Art of Leaving.
No Fuss,No Muss,No Tears, No Fears. Just a clean dry departure.
Hotel, talk on the phone,say hi,say bye, look at him/you,hug her until she falls asleep.
Morning Time, get in the car,check out,check in, kiss you,hug you, miss you, take my heart in your pocket, looking back, she sees your eyes, give each other a sign...walk away.
In the plane, sleep ,read, off the plane,in the cab,get the home keys, stairs, she suffers by antecipation with the thought of an empty house...
Open the door, closed her eyes and all of a sudden...NOTHING! It didn't hurt, she opened her eyes and her house was full! Full of adventures to be lived, full of stories to be told!
She smiled and closed the "door" behind her.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
-I'm tired of waiting.
-I never asked you to.
-I know.Have you heard of hope?
-Yes,but I never gave you hope either.
-I know...so I guess I'll get going.
-You'll be back...you always come back.
-I never told you I would be back.
-I know,but you always do.
-Hmmmm...well I guess you'll have to wait and hope that I do this time.