Maybe...

She couldn't afford the trip back in time...It was way too expensive. The price to pay? Her Heart! Since she just recovered it she decided to keep it and not risk it...all she could do was to fantasize,and she did.

She imagined Him saying all the right words to her,and giving her hugs&kisses when she needed them,loving her unconditionaly and to promise her that it was forever and ever. She also saw herself as a better person,and not making the same mistakes she once has,she was way warmer and not afraid to live and love! They were both secure in the Love they shared and nothing could break their bond.

She opened her eyes and realized she had the most important part,the unconditional Love and an unbreakable bond...she would never have the phisical part again but at least she had Her Heart in one piece.

Did she want the trip back in time? NO! She wanted the Present!And that Present would become a bright Future... with her Heart empty but in one piece.

Delicious!

If life gives you lemons...EAT THEM! Cuz they are delicious!

Home is where the heart is PART II

Today I woke up with an achy feeling in my chest,and I know exactly what it is. Like "E.T GO HOME"-"A.S GO HOME" I MISS NYC!!!! I miss my so-called routine,I miss my friends and most of all I miss my apartment!

I like being in Lisbon with my family and friends...but still...I know I belong there.

And with this in mind,the countdown starts...less than a week to go.

I had a lovely time here,specially because I had low expectations,LOL. I saw tons of friends,I worked,and I had fun!

I'm still here and a lot can happen in a couple of days,so...let's see if I'm gonna be surprised by Life...I sure hope so. =)

Scent

I love to smell like you...

Pain.

It is very sad to come to the realization that you´ve hurt someone...It hurts to hurt,specially when you realize it a little to late. I have hurt someone...it was not on purpose ,I thought I was right at the time but I wasn´t.

I had no idea I could cause that much pain on a person,that´s a huge flaw I have...the dificulty to put myself in the other person´s skin,and now that I finally did it,I feel terrible and I apologized.

I´ve been hurt too,so I should know better and not do it...but as I usually say "Living & Learning".

I hate this feeling,so I have to step away from who I hurted and make peace with myself.

I hope I never hurt anyone again.It sucks.

I L..... YOU!

This day was full of surprises...it day started with thorns and its ending up on a very surprising note!

An hour ago,a boy said to me " Sofia I like you!I've been wanting to say this to you for the past 5 years."- Can everybody imagine my shock? (by the way I know the boy is reading this,but this is a public blog so... =P )

Well ,I was shocked because nobody has said that to me for the past 4 years(except the person I was with),and quite honestly I didn't know how to react,but I was honored,because the "boy" is a great person (yes,you are!)

When I was a teen ,it used to be so easy to say "I like you" to someone,and I used to hear it quite often (ahahahahahah),but while I was on a relationship I didn't let anyone come close to me enough to say it. I'm used to being the funny one and the friend not the "object of affection", I guess it's time for me to open my eyes and see who "likes me", I'm curious to know what they "like" ...because for me it's kind of funny to be in this position,funny in a sweet way!

Wow...I'm so not "likable" in that way...ahahahah! If only the "boy" knew!

But Thanks for making a probably "neutral day",into a "funny in a sweet way" day! Am I rambling? See? That's what happens when I'm liked,I acted weird! ahahahahahah!

Oh well! =D

A flower is still a flower...

I remembered the song "A rose is still a Rose" by Aretha Franklyn, and I want to hence this part:

"See a rose is still a rose
Baby, girl, you're still a flower
He can't lead you and then take you
Make you and then break you
Darlin', you hold the power

Let your life be in the sunshine
Not the darkness of your sorrow
You may see your all today
but new love will come tomorrow"

Sometimes I feel like a blooming yellow rose,with HUGE THORNS!!!and to get close to me,people will get bloody hands. I'm the kind of Woman, that is not possible to tame at all. And if you try you may get bloody hands, a very bloody brain and heart. muahaahahahah! =D

The Tower of the Power

"The Tower of the Power goes up to the Sky,feel free to try to climb it,destroy it,praise it...you won't suceed" -I wrote a text when I was 17 that started like that,I lost it in NYC,BLAH!!!! But I never forgot how it started,even thought at the time I wasn't writing about something specific,actually I was on a plane and I looked to the control tower and got inspired...but as the text developed I felt like I was writing about someone,and today I chose that someone to be me!

I feel so empowered each day that goes by,I am in control of my actions I do what I want ,when I want it! I am the boss of me,other peoples actions don't get under my skin like before,I watch it happen,think about it and go on about my life. How wonderful!!!

I'm not obsessed with anyone,I dont have any addictions, my health is great,and good thins are coming my way,so for probably the first time in my life I feel BALANCED.

I can get used to this feeling =D

Thanks to those who are there for me ,everyday and every second,I love u forever!!!

p.s -Promise I.

Trust Issues.

Lately I came to the sad realization that I trust people a little bit too much.And then some of this people end up TRYING to fuck me over. Why are people like that? Trying to use my life against me? What do they get from this?The pleasure of betraying a "so-called"friend?

Truth always comes up...sooner or later,no one can run away from it.

Actually "THANK YOU" for teaching me this amazing lesson,my godmother always told me to speak to the walls,because the walls won't tell your secrets to anyone! Wow...was she right,or what?

To "these" people I have one thing to say: Even though you were a motherfucker to me,I will keep your secrets and treasure the great moments we had,and will still have,because guess what? You don't know that I know what you did,and you'll read this and be like "hmmmm....is she talking about me?" yes I am, I'll keep you in my life. Will I trust you again? NO.

Another day,another lesson. A good one by the way.

Now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIIxlgcuQRU&feature=fvst

I love this song!the first time I heard it was 16 years ago in the car of an old friend of mine,and this song defenitly takes me to Amazing places in my mind =)

I was thinking today, how things only affect you if you let them get to you.if you either ignore it or make peace with it (and by making peace I mean just let it be) it will not get you not even 0.5% . As most of my friends know,I'm a very impulsive gal!ahahaha! And this has gotten me in MAJOR trouble with none other than myself,so I didn't lose my impulsive side at all,I just know how to "manage" the timings better. So when people are investing their time in trying to make you miserable, just pray that they transform that energy in something positive and invest it on themselves, I always try to show them how to do it,but they just hate me more for knowing better! ahahahahahah! How lovely?

Is it weird being 23 and not being in love with someone other than myself??? I gave it some thought,and I want to believe that I'm normal (even though I know I'm not). Most people I know go to bed thinking about that someone special,even if they're not in a relationship they like someone or want to be with someone,not me...it's not that I desperately want to be or don't want to be,I'm just analyzing myself and coming to that NEUTRAL conclusion.

Speaking of desperate....uhuhuhuhuh! should I or should I not? hmmm,here comes the impulsive side!!! damn...I really can't control it this time,I'm sorry y'all,it wouldn't be me if I shut my mouth observing something so obvious! DESPERATE PEOPLE TAKE DESPERATE MEASURES,and I love to see them falling down of their pedestal, trying to provoke the Mortals,and when they don't succeed they see how fucking ridiculous they are,and you can see the hate in their eyes....when you see this hate, show them Love! Be the image of what you want to see in the World....who knows? You may inspire someone...someone who's desperate to be Loved!

p.s-try to see this text not as an effect or a reaction,but only as me showing you my state of mind and how I feel.some people chose not to talk about things,but to me that's not an option.

=)

Rare Pictures...

Johnny and his niece
Bruce Lee
Francis Ford Coppola
Yoko Ono,Andy Wahrol and John
Norma Jean
David Bowie
Che
Gia Carangi
Kurt & Frances
Marlon Brando
Michael Jackson
Bob Marley
Adolf Hitler

Lovers & Friends

Bonnie & Clyde
Johnny Depp & Winona Ryder
Marilyn Monroe & JFK
Jerry Hall & Mick Jagger

Upgrade

I decided to give myself an Upgrade, I won't kiss anymore frogs in hopes they will become princes, from now on I'll kiss fish,in hopes they're fish! Meaning that I won't kiss something hoping it will transform itself in something better,If I want a Prince I have to kiss a Prince!Period!

I'm not looking for anything NOW,I'm enjoying my availability to myself,and to my life,but when the time comes and the perfect situation presents itself I'll accept the person as they are...and if I don't like 'em,I won't lose my time neither theirs. Time is Precious...timing is Everything!

Do Better,Know Better! =)

Massive Destruction

Stop Talking About it!...Look at what I've done! =P I guess it's healthy to destroy objects once in a while. (March 16th)

How lovely?

Against All Odds.

Against all odds she was born.

Against all odds she made it through school.

Against all odds someone helped her.

Against all odds she became a soldier.

Agains all odds she didn't play by the rules.

Against all odds she kissed a boy.

Against all odds she conquered her demons.

Against all odds her heart got broken.

Against all odds she recovered.

Against all odds she got a life.

Agains all odds she saw their behavior and didn't judge.

Against all odds she smiled.

Agains all odds she's alive.

Against all odds she will win.

And she wants you to take a good look at her...and against all odds walk way.

(inspired in the song "against all odds" by Phill Collins,the context is different though) =)

Inspiring quotes,etc

We are all inclined to judge ourselves by our ideals; others, by their acts. ~Harold Nicolson

Who you are speaks so loudly I can't hear what you're saying.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

What you are comes to you.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Well done is better than well said. ~Benjamin Franklin

Remember, people will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. You may have a heart of gold - but so does a hard-boiled egg. ~Author Unknown

Trust only movement. Life happens at the level of events, not of words. Trust movement. ~Alfred Adler

"Actions speak louder than words"

"Who needs action ,when you got words?" -Meat Puppets

Moi

photos by Artur Cabral and Salvador Colaco

Validation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cbk980jV7Ao


Watch This!!! =)

Dear Diary! =)

7.31 am-I had the most amazing 4 days of the month,(so far)you know why? Because FINALLY I'm surronding myself with people who are worth my time,and oh boy!are they unbelivable or what???I have all this ENERGY that comes from my Soul!!!

Since I was a little girl,I used to hear people say:"smile and the World smiles right back at ya"-and it actually does!!!I just have all this power and new found strenght inside of me,I've never been happier,and people around me notice:
-"Ana you're glowing!"
-"Ana you are the embodiment of happiness!"
-"Ana you're always laughing!"
-"Ana you are Dennis The Menace!"-my personal fav!lol
-"Ana you're always making people laugh!"

Well to the people who told me this,you met the real Ana! That's me! All natural,NO PRESERVATIVES OR CONSERVATIVES! ahahahahahahahaha!

I met some new people,and I let some people that I always thought were cool into my life,and I'm so glad I did! People with bad vibes don't even come close,they can't handle it,my compassion is to much!they don't understand it,therefore they fear it.Silly people!I gots love for y'all! ahahahahah!

I've had some gentlemen ( about 68...ok maybe 6,lol) kissing my hand,and that one never gets old! I like it a lot! And I do feel like a lady because they don't do it to everyone,(I'm sober and paying attention so I see what I want to see,eheheheheh),and this "kissing hand thing" made me come to the happy conclusion that,you can't buy class it's born with us,you either have or you don't.And plus,you know when it's real or fabricated,all I can say is that mine wasn't bought in Chinatown,it came with the WHOLE PACKAGE!

I'm a lucky person! =)

picture by Artur Cabral

Day I (shows in Portugal)

photo by: Filipe Ferreira
Show: Ricardo Preto

Ice

Last night I had a very interesting dream with Ice,and here's the meaning according to the internet:

Ice Dream Meaning

Psychological Meaning: Water can show the creative flow of the feelings but as ice it shows how feelings are petrified and progress is stopped. You may feel emotionally paralysed so pay more attention to your emotional life and become more attuned to your affections. Perhaps you feel that a situation requires you to ‘cut the ice’? You need to again experience warm wholesome feelings expressed with sincerity. Love will melt your frozen heart.


So I have a frozen heart? What else is news? I hope tonight I dream with a HUGE ice cube!!!

Sweet Dreams y'all!

"Your Ex-Lover is Dead"-by Stars

"God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save..."


Yes darling! Your Ex-Lover is Dead...My condolences!
She told me to tell you two things:

-“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”

-“Every man dies - Not every man really lives.” by William Ross Wallace

Back in Lisbon

Yesterday,I was waiting until last minute for a phone call from my American agencies saying that they got me a job,therefore I couldn't come to Lisbon...but it didn't happen! So I landed in Portugal @ 5:45am , jumped on a cab,got home,saw my brother's face and he made it all better!

I really didn't want to come,because I'm not as productive here nor do I have that much to do...hmmm,but I'll manage.Plus I'm going to be working most of the time anyways.

Well the reason why I didn't want to come,was because of some people's mentality:posers,people that spend most time keeping up appearances, people that have a lifestyle that I disaprove of...and I wouldn't be worried if I didn't have to deal with them...but it's Fashion Week here,SO THEY ARE TAKING OVER!!!!!!!AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH! Even though I try to keep myself distant from them, it's kind of impossible ,and the biggest problem is that they are blood and energy suckers. I need to chant a lot for their souls and for me to have patience to be cordial with them.

I must admit I'm excited to work with the designers here,to see some people I haven't seen in a while,and to have fun in general =D

Wise word by Lady Gaga

"Some women choose to follow men,and some women choose to follow their dreams,If you're wondering which way to go,remember that your career will never wake up and tell you it doesn't love you anymore"

"Tempo D'ja Bai"

I just finished the book "Tears of the Desert" (Lagrimas do Darfur),and I recomend it to everybody. It's shocking what Human Beings do to one another because of politics,power and money.It's a very intense book which will make you rethink some choices you make. Life can be very short...one minute you're here the other you're gone.

There's a song that I've been listening to a lot ,it's called "Tempo d'ja bai" by Celso,a very talented young man that I have the pleasure to know. Half of the song is in Portuguese,and the other half is in Cape Verdian creole and he says "Tempo d'ja bai,e el ka ta ben mas" which means "Time is gone,and it's not coming back" ,so I am living my life to the fullest.

Speaking of time, my friend Shayla is getting married a year from now. She was telling me all about the plans and how excited she is! I am so happy for them! It seems like only yesterday her boyfriend proposed to her in my building's lobby in Portugal. If I'm not mistaken it was on her birthday two or three years ago. They're a lovely couple and I wish them the best! They deserve it =) In some cases love does conquer all!

Another Day,Another Way

Nyc...2010 =) It feels good to be here even though I'm leaving pretty soon. I just feel more active and motivated!

Today I woke up from a nightmare (it felt very real,like REEEEEEAL) it was about something that will defenitly happen in my life sooner or later,no...it's not about death,it's about Honesty...ok,I know you're curious! It's not that serious its just you know somebody walks up to me and says "Sofia I bla bla bla" and then I start crying,and punching this person in the face and say "Oh,well thanks for being honest",then I walk away and think "everything is going to be alright,life goes on." Then I opened my eyes,and just stared at the ceiling and didn't realize I was awake for the next 5 minutes. Funny how your mind plays tricks on you...

Then as usual I went to the gym,and when I came back home I decided to say hi to this very peculiar lady that I almost see everyday...I decided to call her "Nora"! So "Nora",is a blonde lady,mid 50's probably,she wears shades,medium stature ,she's slim,and wears 80's suits,she's always in the company of her cigarettes,constantly puffing away. Winter,Summer,Spring,Fall,she's always outside smoking and wearing her shades,I've never seen her without it,and she seems lonely...not because she's alone,I've seen her with a friend at the Pizza place on 3rd Avenue,I can't point what it is,it's just ...I don't know...I've never seen her eyes you know,but I believe I see her Soul. Her Soul is bland,its almost like she doesn't exist,or actually its more like she doesnt know she's alive...so for these reasons and more I decided to smile at her today when I passed by her,and surprisingly for me,and I'm sure for her ,she acknowledged me with her eye brows,to which I promptly waved my hand and I kept walking feeling like a better person."Nora" you made my day!I've been wanting to say hi to you for almost 2 years,and I finally did it!wow,maybe one day I'll see your Soul in a different way,I sure hope so.

After spending the afternoon with my friends,I returned to my apartment around 9'15, and something cool happened,it smelled like "HOME"...I can't quite explain it,it just made me feel all fuzzy and welcome inside! If home is where the heart is,then my HEART is defenitly here...in the USA,NYC,Manhattan,Upper East Side,in my tiny apartment.

Rebel

No one knew what she did,she lied everytime they asked.She took a vow to never let 'em know that she was an Urban Rebel.
Like other rebels she often felt misunderstood,but in her head that was a wonderful thing,she just didn't want to feel like a part of the mass.
Everyday she fought other peoples causes,and this made her smile and sleep better at night...until one day, people learned fighting their own causes and they didn't need her anymore. That same day she started looking for her own causes,she found so many and fought them all. Sometimes she won ,others she lost,but she never gave up.
She traveled the World,met other rebels and they all kept busy in their lives and gave her tons of advice,she listened carefuly to each one of those lost souls...sudenly she didn't feel like a Rebel anymore...she felt just like every other mortal on Earth.

You know what she did?

She left to another Planet...she didn't believe in Fairy Tales anyways.

Sunshiny Day! =D

HELLO WORLD!!!! This is Ana Sofia calling!!! How are you? ME? Well,the sun is shining,the temperature is just perfect,the birds are singing,the guy that lives in the next bulding is playing guitar outside his window,and he plays damn well...so I have to say I'm pretty good!

Just spent an hour and a half at the gym,without even noticing,usually I'm counting the minutes to get out of there,but not this time! When I looked at the clock I was like...."wow...already?" On my way home I decided to not listen to the the ipod,and I'm glad I didn't because there was a guy playing the guitar on his window,so I quickly came upstairs and I'm sitting inside listening to him and the birds in Harmony...these moments really make me feel alive.

In other news,last night I went out(AGAIN) and I had a blast (AGAIN) ,just dancing non-stop and making fun of awkward drunksters!LMAO! Then these two Brazilian guys I know, started talking to me trying to do a Portuguese accent!!!OMG!!!!The expressions they used not even my grandparents used!ahahahaha! That was some ancient portuguese!But they made me laugh,so props to them!

I'm finally finding out what my passions are,and the time to start is coming! I can't wait!!!!

Life is today,and the possibilities are endless!

p.s- Thank you for the Wise Words, Mr. M. =)

I feel your Soul...

"Nobody deserves to have their personal life pried into like I did and no one deserves to hear me whine about it so much." -Kurt Cobain

Black Hole Sun -Soundgarden

In my eyes, in disposed,
In disguise:as no one knows
Hides the face Lies
The snake, the sun
In my disgrace
Boiling heat, Summer stench
'Neath the black
The sky looks dead
Call my name
Through the cream
And I'll hear you
Scream again

Black hole sun
Won't you come
And wash away the rain

Black hole sun

Won't you come
Won't you come

Stuttering
Cold and damp
Steal the warm wind
Tired friend
Times are gone
For honest men

And sometimes
Far too long
For snakes
In my shoes
A-walking sleep
And my youth
I pray to keep
Heaven send, Hell away
No one sings
Like you anymore

Black hole sun
Won't you come
And wash away the rain

Black hole sun
Won't you come
Won't you come

Black hole sun
Won't you come
And wash away the rain

Black hole sun
Won't you come
Won't you come

Hang my head
Drown my fear
Till you all just
Disappear

Black hole sun
Won't you come
And wash away the rain

Black hole sun
Won't you come
Won't you come

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qiSkyEyBczU

once upon a time.

Once upon a time there were 2 sheep ,and they were asleep for a very long time,and when they woke up the male sheep asked:"what's you name?" she answered " My name is XB! Is yours still PP?" He seemed very surprised and replied "Yes,but how do you know my name?" she said:"Well that's a very long story..."

The End *

Perfect Equation

This morning I woke up in the airplane thinking about a great question,Compassion & Indifference are these two things compatible?

I am a very compassionate person, but I'm still learning to deal with different feelings for different people. For example some people have become close to indifferent in my life,not totally but close...and everybody says:" If you're forcing this indifference it's because you still feel something for them"-well I've tried to explain many times that I'm not forcing shit,it just so happens that you live and you learn,and then you know better. But,lately I also feel compassion for some people who were getting close to nothing in "my book" , they are what they are and if they are happy with themselves I can't help but being happy for them,and if they've done me wrong at some point in their lifes,its because they didn't know any better,so that's where my compassion comes and shows its face. Right now,here's my equation:

Indifference----------> ME <-------------------Compassion

I'm totally in between,and I know that the "perfect way of feeling" is just to feel compassionate, but I'm not going to be a hypocrite to the point where I'm going to lie to myself that I'm so ready to make amends and to be a "perfect human being",one day it will happen,I will look back and feel compassion for everybody,but there's no rush...I'm letting go of the person that I was,to become who I will be...take me as I am,flaws and all or...don't. That's fine too.

What you see,is what you get,that's my perfect equation.

L.A

My job went super great,I couldn't ask for an easier day! On my way to the Studio I passed in front of the Sunset Tower Hotel (amazing hotel and great staff), and this brought back some great memories. Memories of inocent,cute and carefree days! It's true what they say,you can erase people from your life ,but the good memories live on forever,and I'm glad it is that way. And the greatest part of this was that I wasn't bitter,nor did I miss it.

Now I'm at LAX ,on my way to The Big Apple and there's a pretty intense weekend in front of me,(of course there's also parties ahead,ahahahahh), I have so many errands to run,a trip to organize,and find time for my Awesome friends! I love being a busy bee! <3 I want to finish reading "Tears of the Desert " asap it's a great book and I can't wait for the conclusion. =)


"Once you feel it's ok to come in second, that's exactly what happens to you in life" There's only one YOU and nobody will be a good YOU better than YOU! If you don't love yourself first and know your self-worth how can anybody else? Self-loving equals dignity not selfishness. Love yourself !"

clap,clap,clap!

All done!!! all done,all done,all done!!! Just one more time, ALL FUCKING DONE!!! Ladies and Gentleman the "clutter" is gone. Seriously! I'm not playing! I "cleaned the closet",and now I have even more room for me...it's funny how I decided to fill the "void" in my life with myself! With my dreams,my friends,and the things I enjoy,and specially my DETERMINATIONS!
I must admit that I have to thank the clutter for being a part of my house and my life for so long,because by looking at it everyday I got so fed up,that I said to myself..."Damn girl...still?" and so Wednesday March 3rd of 2010, it has left the building,this clutter was nice enough to leave me,and to leave room for some better things to come along,and if I tell you that I see those things in the horizon,I'm not lying to you.

Is it me or life is Good? =)

shhhhh....

The walls say white,the cupboard says glass,the fridge says food,the floor says wood,the tv says everything,the windows say snow,my bed says dreams,my closet says crowded,my couch says lay down,the ceiling says dance...all this in the deepest silence...a silence that echoes my soul and fills me with peace.

Jackie's tea in a cool Cup! =)

Future Love (lyrics)

"My past love
Was so cold and insincere
When I needed a love to rely on
Looked around and no one was here

My past love
Was a love with hopes running high
When I needed somebody beside me
I just had you saying goodbye

With that holding on
I'll do this for my Future Love
I'm keeping my mind feeling strong
I'll do this for my Future Love
I'm keeping my soul here together
I'll do this for my Future Love
I make sure my new love is better
I'll do this for my Future Love

My past love
Was a love that cheated and left
When I thought I had a love to guide me
All I had was pain and regret

With that holding on
I'll do this for my Future Love
I'm keeping my mind feeling strong
I'll do this for my Future Love
I'm keeping my soul here together
I'll do this for my Future Love
I make sure my new love is better
I'll do this for my Future Love

Hopes running high..."

=)

I feel One with the World and my Mind! How do you like me now? =D

It's not me,it's you!

I started the week the best way possible,chanting,gym,hanging out with my friends,and just being happy in general. =D

We all went to luch at " something,something pitti" (I forgot the name,I know it ends in pitti though),it's on 6th avenue and Houston,an Italian restaurant. The conversation was great,I taunted John as usual,actually everybody did! We spoke about marriage,cheating,and other interesting stuff I can't remember,but it was really ,really interesting. We also went to the movies to watch "Cop Out"! I love Tracy Morgan,he reminds me of my dad!ahaahahahah! When the movie was over I sang "DON'T CRY FOR ME ARGENTINA" coming down the escalators, and I ended up embarassing my friends,as usual =). If I was famous I would entertain the paparazzi a lot " Yo,let's take pictures of this loony and sell it for twenty bucks"ahahahahah!

Now I'm @ Fontaine's house(his name was changed to protect his identity,lol), I'm hanging out with "ma girlzzz" ,eating blackberries ,and I just asked out loud "AM I WEIRD?" and Jackie said, "Of course you are!What kind of question is that?!" I totally am...AND I LOVE IT!

So,I went to the supermarket and started dancing there,and then I spoke to every employee at Whole Foods and made them laugh,I like to think I'm making their day more intresting,lol,then we went to the street and while Jackie was hailing a cab,I yelled "WE WANT A CAB!" in the middle of Union Square...and one stopped! (Jackie says it was her hailing ...but deep down she knows the truth),then we spoke about her adventure in Brasil on the way home.

We got home 30 minutes ago,she made her African tea,I chatted on-line with "ma peepzzzz" ,and I had the great news that I'm working in LA on Thursday (I'll be laughing all the way to the bank,ahahahahh).

Now I'm crying watching an animal abuse comercial! They run over a cow,and the cats are all blind and shit... =.(....these fucking comercials always get me.

(a couple of minutes later)

I feel better,and I came to the conclusion whoever doesn't like me,it's not me...it's them! Good 4 me!

I want more blackberries, but I'm lazy.BLAH!

xoxo

Countdown...

I'm 2 days away from total inner peace, I'm "Cleaning out my closet" like they say,and it feels pretty awesome! I love being determined about these things that have to go!

I'm shutting down all the mess that was in my life, and its easier than I was thinking, the reason why I didn't know it's because I didn't really try it before.

I just want Peace & Love in my life, exactly in that order.

Yesterday someone reinforced my mind about something I'm going to start doing in April,apparently(general opinion) I'm pretty good at it...and to think that I didn't do it before to let "others" shine...which they didn't by the way.

What did I learn from it? To not hide my talents from the World,sooner or later they come out even as in a joke as it did yesterday.

"Uh-oh HOT DOG!!!"